Today kinda fucked up!!!! sorry for vulgarities bear with it........just wrote this....dono whats wrong with life la.....this afternoon was having fun n all at SSB...then now feeling shit ?? wtf man..........Well...ive thought about it and made up my mind.....time to get on.....i dont give a Sh*t...................

-Why-

Once in a long while I miss,
Your kiss and your smile all top of my list.
How much my thoughts fluctuate,
My feelings of joy just dissipate.
Why does my mood always swing?
It feels good one moment, but next I feel the sting.
What is this I still feel inside?
Am I just trying to take everything in my stride?
Sometimes I just cant take it anymore,
I dont wanna go on, whats all this for?
You tell me things to make me feel fine,
But things always go wrong as I've seen many a time.
Best friends we were supposed to be,
Is this how you are supposed to treat me?
Ive done everything which I could and would do,
I tried my best, Tried to bring happiness to you.
Why did I get all this in return?
Looks like this is really a lesson to learn.
I swore to stand by you no matter what,
I never realised that it would be this hard.
Why is all this happening?
Its like a nightmare endlessly repeating.
Everynight on my bed I lie,
Trying to push out thoughts of you and I.
I dont wanna give up, but I guess I must
So this is it? Goodbye to our trust?
Why must it be like this way?
I thought we could go on every day.
I loved you, I really did and I really do,
Thats why I can never find enough words to say to you........

14/12/03

Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 12/14/2003 12:53:00 AM.