Wednesday, April 27, 2005
The hunger
It lives inside me, it is who I am
Fueling the desire, the dark forbidden passion
It takes control, my will it does bend
Of sense make none words of my confession
But pure guile prehaps? Could it be?
Affection displaced in senseless control
Displaying so in splendourous decree
Love unending, though heart grow old
Grant me liberation's hand I plea
Never for granted never for a day
Cherished for eternity, worshipped by me
Only you can rid this hunger away
It lives inside me, it is who I am
Fueling the desire, the dark forbidden passion
It takes control, my will it does bend
Of sense make none words of my confession
But pure guile prehaps? Could it be?
Affection displaced in senseless control
Displaying so in splendourous decree
Love unending, though heart grow old
Grant me liberation's hand I plea
Never for granted never for a day
Cherished for eternity, worshipped by me
Only you can rid this hunger away
Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 4/27/2005 01:01:00 AM.
Monday, April 25, 2005
The words echo through my soul, each note hitting raw nerve...
A song, its just a song.
But yet why does it seem to hurt from deep within? It just feels as if Ive been ripped apart and left to die, with each beat of my heart I bleed your presence. But you are just a face I dont know, You are just a voice I dont hear, A love I dont Feel. How much I try itll just be another fairy tale, it will just be another stanza in a forgotten book.
I feel the ballad's anguish, and its desire. And I just feel so alone
That is what it feels like, all that I've got are these tears
and this FairyTale of you and me...
A song, its just a song.
But yet why does it seem to hurt from deep within? It just feels as if Ive been ripped apart and left to die, with each beat of my heart I bleed your presence. But you are just a face I dont know, You are just a voice I dont hear, A love I dont Feel. How much I try itll just be another fairy tale, it will just be another stanza in a forgotten book.
I feel the ballad's anguish, and its desire. And I just feel so alone
That is what it feels like, all that I've got are these tears
and this FairyTale of you and me...
Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 4/25/2005 02:19:00 AM.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
April 24th, almost the end of the month, and a month of break- Boredom amidst enjoyment. The weeks have been draggy yet there is always something to look forward to, the light at the end of the tunnel. Well, u see, thats the fun part, getting to the end of that tunnel wondering what holds. And after that, life brings you to another tunnel, sometimes an even darker one, giving you the same experience all over again. Id like to call this the tunnel of broken dreams, mainly because what you've always expected at the end is usually never what it turns out to be, or mostly so. I guess for me, NS is the light at the end of the darkness, the liberation of the man within the boy. Supposedly a whole new experience awaits during the twilight years of my life. Well not in a bad tone but its that time of every guys life where its sorta like a timeout from everything. From Work, from society, from old securities, from norms - at least for 80% of the time. For me hopefully it wont seal my educational endeavour :P .
Ever since the release from the shackles of SCHOOLWORK, Ive been idling my time away on computer games. These little evils make you feel like uve just wasted a whole lotta time after you've finished, yet leaving u coming back for more. Other than that, theres been 2 looked-forward events this month. 1.Prom and 2.Chalet
Prom was special and it was a first. Hailing from an all boys school, I didnt think my schools little dinner event at the un"cool" canteen was considered prom. This time it was different though. It was a glamourous night, all glitters and jitters. Everyone looked a notch better, pleasing to the eye albeit deceiving, if u know what i mean heh. Dont u think that prom should be orientation? Isnt it a little too late to find out how stunning the people u knew looked? (cud b makeup) lol..the night went well, lots of flashes which ended with the invasion of China Black.Its dissapointing that not everyone was there, possibly one of the last times seeing everyone together.
Preprom was rather fun too, I wouldnt imagine saying it but yes, I mean shopping. Spent practically the whole week playing fashion doctor as well as fashion victim. Settled on a yellow Zara top, and "borrowed" rest. G2000 was the standard issue for most ..ahaha.. at least all the tailoring and fitting paid off in the end.
Fast forward one week and *poof, everyones at downtown East. Yes the horrorific claustrophobic room...Turned out it wasnt too bad though, the rooms were renovated and we had an adjoining room. The balcony was gone, but that means more space indoors. Still, Whimsical ballads echoing through the stillness of the night while basking under the brilliance of the moon is an experience not to be missed, nor forgotten. I will miss those days... Finding solitude amongst the trees....
Seems everyone had a good time, be it consuming OBJECTS or just indulging in the simple pleasantries available to us. There was a huge stirrup, but that would have to be left out.
Nothing much else to say, it was a chalet which was just that, imagine.
Ever since the release from the shackles of SCHOOLWORK, Ive been idling my time away on computer games. These little evils make you feel like uve just wasted a whole lotta time after you've finished, yet leaving u coming back for more. Other than that, theres been 2 looked-forward events this month. 1.Prom and 2.Chalet
Prom was special and it was a first. Hailing from an all boys school, I didnt think my schools little dinner event at the un"cool" canteen was considered prom. This time it was different though. It was a glamourous night, all glitters and jitters. Everyone looked a notch better, pleasing to the eye albeit deceiving, if u know what i mean heh. Dont u think that prom should be orientation? Isnt it a little too late to find out how stunning the people u knew looked? (cud b makeup) lol..the night went well, lots of flashes which ended with the invasion of China Black.Its dissapointing that not everyone was there, possibly one of the last times seeing everyone together.
Preprom was rather fun too, I wouldnt imagine saying it but yes, I mean shopping. Spent practically the whole week playing fashion doctor as well as fashion victim. Settled on a yellow Zara top, and "borrowed" rest. G2000 was the standard issue for most ..ahaha.. at least all the tailoring and fitting paid off in the end.
Fast forward one week and *poof, everyones at downtown East. Yes the horrorific claustrophobic room...Turned out it wasnt too bad though, the rooms were renovated and we had an adjoining room. The balcony was gone, but that means more space indoors. Still, Whimsical ballads echoing through the stillness of the night while basking under the brilliance of the moon is an experience not to be missed, nor forgotten. I will miss those days... Finding solitude amongst the trees....
Seems everyone had a good time, be it consuming OBJECTS or just indulging in the simple pleasantries available to us. There was a huge stirrup, but that would have to be left out.
Nothing much else to say, it was a chalet which was just that, imagine.
Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 4/24/2005 03:17:00 AM.