Dont know whats wrong with me...there always seem to be complications in life...wether in frenz, family, schwork, internally or even in love......and the worse thing is that its always the same thing or similiar......ah well.......after reading the email on Reasons Seasons and liftime...i realise so many of my frens whom i thought were close are actually just a phase.....come and go ...and come again and go....haiz....oh well.....i dont know wether its just im thinking too much as always or issit something else........i feel im losing another friend again...we were quite close for a period in time...now drifting apart....was it something i said?? i can really feel the change..but then again issit just me??? oh well.....i ask alot of questions...i do alot of soul searching...i cant help it..thats me....ppl may think im a nagger but thats me...i dont wanna behave like how i think i should behave but rather behave like what i really am...cant accept it? i don care....these kinda things make me pissed..getting pissed alot recently...and getting pissed easily too...i juz dono la....theres always this hole in my life which various ppl fill during different times....what can i do anyway?.........

yesterday went to celebrate joels bdae...was pretty fun....gave him alot of presents..first time i bought so many dif presents, first time spent so much effort, first time bought so crazy things.....ah...made him open it 1 by 1 too...was memorable....hope everyone enjoyed themselves...had to make vincent and cheryl wait as we were fashionably late as usual....have to pay a fine this time ...1$ per 15mins....still owe the "treasurer" 2 bux....in the end ate at hans...the counter guy forgoten my order...dammit...had to change last min.....sickening.....ok....time to stop being an ah-ma.....ill miss days like this.....thanks to all of u guys who make life memorable

Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 2/08/2004 10:03:00 PM.