Life....same ole boring routines....well...sch has started. First week will be holidays still since there is only lectures that need to attend. The lectures are all introductory lectures too...how sickening......suddenly feel so lost...neither here nor there, friends not free, all have sch,army, work? No game, Song nor Show can replace the company of friends....got not much to write...havent been doing anything interesting maybe??? but then again theres the "chalet" at my house...well im glad at least ppl did turn up..would really suck if no one did..although abit dissapointing. Seems im letting lotsa stuff get to me at once......really feeling all stressed over stupid things last nite...today was good....well i spent the entire day being a hermit.....maybe i just need some time to myself..to sort out everything......what do i really want to do???????? I dont even know why im utterly confused.....im happy..but not truly happy....at least its no longer Her that my unhappiness is caused...whatever...its a past episode..we dont even talk anymore....just hope shes happy with life.. fell asleep this afternoon....felt better i supose? my hair looks the same whether i sleep or not..hah......ah well...todays the end of xmas...come to think of it, xmas doesnt even feel like it......why does 2003 make everything so bland??? i really miss the days........i wish i was a kid again...nothing to think abt..just live life and wake up every morning with a smile on your face, hope in your heart.....what am i saying??? maybe i dont even know myself now...maybe im just feeling all jetlagged....i guess ill end here or someone will call a psychiatrist to lecture me on life after reading this...hah....

Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 1/06/2004 09:56:00 PM.