Friday, February 24, 2006

I lost it...

The eerie calmness of it all scared me most. I could still think, i could still feel normal. But there was this overpowering grasp choking me, ripping my spine, refusing to let go, just channeling all my angst.

So i rammed my fist against the wall. Well, more like smashed it. And It felt just so calm in between the shoutings. I said i was ok, but as i went to the mess and back, it felt worse for another second and that overpowering feeling took over me again. I screamed and sent a chair flying, returning to my room to unleash even more fury on my hapless cupboard. It felt so wrong. it felt so crazy. It feels like fuck

I was fucking losing it between seconds of madness. and yet i remained sane, between seconds of calmness.

my hand still hurts..

But It scares me...These are thoughts that kill people..These are thoughts that will kill me
Marcus "Marzipan" Tan last came on 2/24/2006 10:25:00 PM.


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